Edna St. Vincent Millay

Here you will find the Long Poem [Four Sonnets (1922)] of poet Edna St. Vincent Millay

[Four Sonnets (1922)]

I1.
 Love, though for this you riddle me with darts, 
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 And drag me at your chariot till I die, -- 
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 Oh, heavy prince! Oh, panderer of hearts! -- 
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 Yet hear me tell how in their throats they lie 
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 Who shout you mighty: thick about my hair, 
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 Day in, day out, your ominous arrows purr, 
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 Who still am free, unto no querulous care 
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 A fool, and in no temple worshiper! 
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 I, that have bared me to your quiver's fire, 
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 Lifted my face into its puny rain, 
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 Do wreathe you Impotent to Evoke Desire 
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 As you are Powerless to Elicit Pain! 
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 (Now will the god, for blasphemy so brave, 
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 Punish me, surely, with the shaft I crave!) II2.
 I think I should have loved you presently, 
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 And given in earnest words I flung in jest; 
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 And lifted honest eyes for you to see, 
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 And caught your hand against my cheek and breast; 
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 And all my pretty follies flung aside 
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 That won you to me, and beneath your gaze, 
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 Naked of reticence and shorn of pride, 
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 Spread like a chart my little wicked ways. 
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 I, that had been to you, had you remained, 
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 But one more waking from a recurrent dream, 
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 Cherish no less the certain stakes I gained, 
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 And walk your memory's halls, austere, supreme, 
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 A ghost in marble of a girl you knew 
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 Who would have loved you in a day or two. III3.
 Oh, think not I am faithful to a vow! 
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 Faithless am I save to love's self alone. 
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 Were you not lovely I would leave you now: 
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 After the feet of beauty fly my own. 
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 Were you not still my hunger's rarest food, 
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 And water ever to my wildest thirst, 
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 I would desert you -- think not but I would! -- 
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 And seek another as I sought you first. 
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 But you are mobile as the veering air, 
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 And all your charms more changeful than the tide, 
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 Wherefore to be inconstant is no care: 
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 I have but to continue at your side. 
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 So wanton, light and false, my love, are you, 
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 I am most faithless when I most am true. IV4.
 I shall forget you presently, my dear, 
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 So make the most of this, your little day, 
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 Your little month, your little half a year, 
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 Ere I forget, or die, or move away, 
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 And we are done forever; by and by 
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 I shall forget you, as I said, but now, 
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 If you entreat me with your loveliest lie 
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 I will protest you with my favorite vow. 
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 I would indeed that love were longer-lived, 
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 And vows were not so brittle as they are, 
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 But so it is, and nature has contrived 
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 To struggle on without a break thus far, -- 
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 Whether or not we find what we are seeking 
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 Is idle, biologically speaking.